Interesting story: a dream

I was sleeping for a while. Maybe about 30 minutes. And I had a dream while I was sleeping. Let me talk about that dream.


I was in Niigata, around my home. In reality, I can see a lot of cats around my home and some of them are my friends ( though I am not sure they are thinking I am their friend, but they always come to me when they find me). I was walking in the street. It was near from a Japanese bar that my friend's father is running. A big cat faced me. A big cat, as big as a car. He said, "Why are you here? You shouldn't be here. This is our place. You must find your place. You must find what you have to do now." "Our? Who are they? You mean cats?" I asked. "We are cats, and you are one, but you are not a cat. We are cats including you, but you are a humanbeing. You musn't be here," the cat said. "I am a cat, but also a humanbeing, right?" I asked. "That's right, a poor little cat," the cat laughed. "I can't understand what you mean. If I am one of you, I mean..., a cat, I wanna join you. Let me be here!" I said.

Somebody called my name behind my back, but it might not be my name. I am not sure it was my name. I turned around and saw who it was. It was myself. He (I) talked me, "You musn't be our side. Stay there and never turn to us. It's too dangerous." "Dangerous? What is dangerous? I guess you're a part of me, so I should accept me," I said to him (me). "No, you are a part of me. Obey and respect me. That's my order to you. Obey and respect me. Stay there with your cat-like friends!" he (I) shouted. I turned around to speak to the big cat, but it wasn't there. I could see only a tail. A tail of a cat. "See, they left a hint for you to get there," somebody said to me from somewhere. " There? Where is that? Where should I go?" I shouted and turned around. No one was there. Somebody was laughing at me. "Where are you? Who is it?" I shouted. "You are still here, a poor little cat," the big cat appeared and said, "I said you nusn't be here. You are a part of me, so you must obey and respect me!" it ordered me. "Are you myself? You looks like a cat! Just a cat!" I shouted. "I'm yourself. Everything you see is yourself. You are right, a poor little boy," I said to me. Suddenly, I got blind.

I tried to see something. I tried to open my eyes. But I couldn't. At that moment, somebody patted my shoulder. I turned around, but no one was there (I wasn't blind, suddenly, i don't know why). Just nothing was there. No human, no cat, no street, no house, no car, no nature, no building, no color (not white, I couldn't find what color the world had), no sun, no wind, no feeling. I was no where. I was just no where.

Suddenly, a voice was there, "It's all your fault. All your fault, a poor thing." I wanted to say something, but I couldn't speak it up, even I didn't know what I wanted to say. "What do you want to do? Who are you? I am yourself, but you don't know who are you. You have to understand who you should be. Think about people around you. Who are they? They are yourself? Never. They are theirselves. So who are you? Who Are You?" it asked. "I don't know who I am. I don't know what I should do. Who am I? Who are you? And what is MYSELF?" I cried. "That's correct. It's YOURSELF. And it's MYSELF. You are me, and I am you. Who are we? We never know. We just never know...," a voice said and disappeared. I also disappeared, willingly, slowly. Then I was nowhere. I was nothing.

I can't understand what that meant now, but I could felt that I was nowhere and I was nothing. Anyway, that was the dream I had.